Thursday, October 22, 2009

Unexpected behaviour from my wife

When my wife first got the idea of having me drink her pee I thought it would be something we'd try once or twice and then get bored of it. What surprised me is how much she seems to be enjoying it. There are two ways she has me do it.

She told me to leave a glass in the bathroom for her to use. Every other day she calls me into the toilet right after she has emptied herself. She points to a full glass on this sink which I take in my hand and drop to my knees before her, as she remains on the toilet. Looking into her eyes I drink every last drop as she sits there smiling/grinning at me. I did NOT expect her to like it this much. The thrill for me is that she enjoys it so much. It is a real turn on.

Sometimes she slides open the shower door and tells me to get on my knees (both of us naked). I then have to cup it in my hands and drink it up. To make sure I drink it all she'll hold back the stream in between my handfuls. She has pee'd directly into my mouth but she prefers me to cup it in my hand and drink from my cupped hands. It's easier for her to see.

Will we get bored of this? Will it go on for decades? I've no idea. All I know is that we've both been doing it and enjoying it a lot more than I expected us to.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Does the husband need acknowledgement or should he submit 100%

Below is a comment I left for whatevershesays on his post "Interesting Comments"
I thought it was worth posting here:


Dear whatevershesays,

I agree fully with you. I'm not convinced that the first comment is not just fantasy material. However, even if it is 100% true, and works well for the lady (you don't usually see ladies write like that), it doesn't mean it works well for your and anybody else.

Your point about some sort acknowledgement from your wife is valid in my opinion. Although there may be husbands happy with no acknowledgement I haven't come across believable examples.

A relationship is a two way thing. If I don't get any acknowledgement I get less joy from my submission. Yes you can argue that it isn't pure submission if you "require" something from your wife, but hey, that's just how I've noticed things work with me. Maybe I'll change and be happy without her acknowledging her dominance but I seriously doubt it.

Wife led marriage is a very very beneficial set up for the wife. (I sometimes fantasise to myself that I'm my wife and can order me about at whim, or look down to see me worshipping my feet) In my opinion if something is very important to the husband, his wife should at least make an effort to learn a little more about it. Her relationship with her husband determines more than most other things in life her state of mind and happiness. If her husband has a deep underlying frustration it would probably affect the relationship. If the husband is getting his (minimal) minimal needs met he is likely to be happier and therefore in a better mood which rubs off on his wife. I don't personally subscribe to the notion that that the husband wants means nothing.

I'd struggle to go more than a week without any playful acknowledgement from my wife about her being the dominant partner. Just yesterday she left a glass of pee for me to drink when she finished in the toilet in the morning. Before I left for work I asked her if her feet needed kissing. Standing up, she took her right foot from her sandal and held it forward. I dropped to my knees and kissed it for about 10 seconds. I went off to work happy and satisfied.

That's just my feeling on it and I'm sure others may see it differently.

Mother in law comments

My mother in law has been visiting for the last two weeks.

This is the first time she's seen me be extra helpful to my wife as or FLR is now more obvious. As my wife's sitting by her computer I'll kneel beside her chair and ask her what else she wants help with. I've been helping my wife a lot

On this visit my mother in law keeps commenting privately to my wife about what a good husband I now am. She said to her yesterday:

"He's such a good husband to you. He comes home from work tired and you boss him about all evening."

My wife had a twinkle in her eye telling me this.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Big News - part 2

As I continued the nightly and morning footrubs I paid better and better attention to taking care of her. A big turning point for me was reading a post by a lady (byrdie) on the website where she said something along the lines of: make a list of all the things that cause any type of stress or discomfort to your wife. Ignore the ones that are outside of your control (weather?) and then make taking care of the others your priority list. This I did. My wife noticed that as I was giving her the morning and nightly foot rubs (and kisses), and reminding her she's the boss that my attitude and behaviour improved dramatically. I genuinely started paying better attention to her in all things and doing everything I could to help. We both noticed we felt much happier and closer to each other.

Eventually I decided she was happy enough with how things were going to introduce the website to her. A few years ago I made the mistake of asking her to read the Elise Sutton website which she told me she disliked and which put her off FLR.

So one day I emailed her links to about 4 posts I thought she'd relate to on the SMTR website and said that I thought it could help both of us if she had a few mins to browse through it. Her initial email back to me was five word response like

"you need a log on."

I thought she just wasn't that bothered and that although very important to me, it didnt' seem important to her. The next day I went on her computer and set up a profile for her and emailed her the logon details.

That evening she logged on while I was sitting across the kitchen table from her. She was enjoying it and I could see her face lighting up. I could see a twinkle in her eye and she told me she wanted to get verified to get into the "real womens" area. I couldn't believe that she was interested enough in the website to want to do this. I was in heaven. Well actually I have been since then.

She spent quite a long time reading different posts and said that some of them gave her good ideas. She immediatly became more comfortable and confident in her dominance. Since then the FLR aspect of our marriage is now fully acknowledged between us and she's much more playful with me. She can see that I'm making an effort to be as helpful to her as possible and she knows that she needs to give this some sort of acknowledgement every day.

For example one night while finshing up her foot rub she starting sticking her toes into my mouth (her way of telling me to suck them). She than sat up on the bed with a smile and told me I could have a few strokes of masturbation while she watched me sucking her toes. She only gave me a 5-10 seconds but it was wonderful. I then had to go to bed.

The next night she was staying up a little later on the computer as I had to go to bed earlier to get up in time for work the next day. As she sat at her computer I went over and knelt beside her to hug and kiss her good night. She took her foot out of her sandal and started pushing it all over my face for me to kiss it--while smiling down at me. It was a delicious moment we both enjoyed.

She got an email from the moderators at SMTR settting up a real woman verificaiton video call. My wife phoned back the SMTR moderator from skype on speakerphone while my mother in law was in the room--I was shocked and scrambled to give her a more private line to make the call and get my mother in law out of the room. 10 minutes later I started liking the idea of her being so comfortable with FLR that she didn't mind her mother in law hearing and I wanted her to go back in the room. She did go back but the call was ending and she wouldn't have known who it was, nor did she ask.

In anycase I was delighted that my wife was now seeing SMTR as matter of fact. For the first time in our marriage I felt we had a FLR that was going to remain.

We both started reading SMTR in the evenigns and discussing some posts. For example she commented that the watersports post was interesting and liked the stories of ladies who popped out to the restroom to fill a coffee cup up with their urine and had their husbands drink it in coffee shop. When she told me that it sunk in how much she was really taking to FLR. That night she used me for her pleasure before sending me to sleep without release. I was so excited about this change (and knowing that she was one day going share watersports) that I couldn't sleep. At 3am I had no choice to relieve myself or I'm pretty sure I would have gotten to 7am witout a wink of sleep.

When she woke to go to the restroom in the morning I asked her if she needed help, drying herself off afterwards, and allowing me a few drops. She said yes. I was soo excited. She sat on the toilet and I knelt before her but then she stopped and told me to get in the shower and on my knees. I was like a kid before Christmas. She got in and told me to cup my hands below her vagina and then drink it.

I didn't know what this was going to be like. My own urine doesn't always smell that good and I thought it was going to be an uncomfortable, but pleasureable experience.

As her warm yellow goodness filled my cupped hands I bowed down my head to lick it up. Astonishinly it tasted very neutral and was nice and warm. I LOVED IT. While on my knees, I looked up to tell her how much I enjoyed it. The pee kept coming and I kept drinking it as quickly as I could, afriad to spill a drop. I then pushed my face right into her pussy to lick it from the soure. She giggled and the pee stopped. She told me that it make her ticklish and she couldn't pee out the rest. I stood up, looked at her with my big wide happy smiling eyes and told her how much I loved her and how much I enjoyed it. I must have said "that was sooo good" about 7 times. She had a big wide smile and said she was loving it too. She said she still couldn't believe I was doing it. Then she said there was more pee coming and I needed to cup my hands again to drink it up. I dropped to my knees and was careful not to lose any of it. After I finished drinking, she looked me in the eye and told me with a smile that I was never getting a bj again--ever. I said will I be able to give you oral? "Oh yeah, lots."
Will you give me more golden showers? "I sure will"
I told her I was very happy.

I drank a lot of her golden goodness that morning. We were both on a high.

At work I couldn't stop thinking about it and how exciting it was. It took over my thoughts so much that I had to relieve myself mid morning to try and stop thinking about anything sexual.
I sent her a text message to tell her how sexy she was and how much I enjoyed that morning. She said it was great for her too!

That was about 3-4 days ago. Last night I was in bed when she told me to join her in the shower for my golden shower. I jumped straight in, got on my knees and started to cup and consume everything she had to give me. Unfortunately there wasn't that much and it was over quite quickly.

This morning I (reluctantly) asked if I could drink from her again. She was in a bit of a hurry and told me I'd have to get a jug. I knelt before her while she sat on the toilet with a large jug beneath her. She filled the jug--all 16oz!
She sat and watch as I drank every last drop while kneeling before her. To be honest this was a little strange for her and I think she enjoyed the shower more. 16oz is a lot to drink and I had it down in about 30 seconds. I thanked her and reminded her how much I love her.

This evening she asked me if I now expected to drink from her every morning. I said I don't want to expect anything but only whatever you're comfortable with. You're the boss and you do what you're happy with.

We had a lot of friends over and when all was done I said to her in front of one of her friends, you take a rest and I'll do all the cleaning up. She later came back to me told her I did well today and thrust into me (her way of saying there's a good chance of intimacy tonight).

That brings us up to date. We feel closer than ever to each other and are both very happy.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Big News - part 1

I have some big news.

Where do I start? I guess I should have a recap on where we are to date. My wife and I met through vanilla dating 7 years ago. Although I can remember submissive thoughts from my early teens, I'd never discussed them with any partner. I knew she was the one for me and proposed after 3 months. Because I felt so close to her I was able to soon open up about my submissive fantasies in the bedroom. We occasionally indulged but it certainly wasn't an acknowledge female led relationship.

I started reading more online and wasn't sure if I wanted more than just bedroom games. I didn't like the idea of having to do more household chores etc and be at her beck and call. So we occasional played with her being the boss in bed. Eventually I plucked up the courage to order Around Her Finger - The New Brides Guide To Training Her Husband. I read it to her aloud in bed, she liked it and agreed to a week of bootcamp. We both enjoyed it and decided it have a female led relationship. Sometimes things were great, other times she forgot about FLR and didn't pay attention to the intimate part of it. As a result I'd resort to too much self pleasure, take my attention off her, daily life gets in the way and before we know it FLR was a thing of the past.

This seemed to switch on and off every once in a while, although never managing to continue FLR properly for more than a few weeks because it got forgotten about. I think it has to get to a certain point to become a continuous thing. As you can see from some of my older posts there are hot and cold periods and of course long gaps. In the long gaps nothing FLR happened apart from her taking charge during sex. If there were periods with less intimacy between us I just pleasured myself. Our daily life was vanilla and we were both a little irritable with each other. I was somewhat grumpy and she would get annoyed with me very easily.

By looking at my own blog entries I can see that it was Sept 10th when I decided to make a concerted effort to revitalise FLR between us. My first step was to dramatically reduce my self pleasure and focus my energy on her by starting to offer her nightly foot rubs again and during this time remind her that she's the boss.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Does the honor system work?

My birdlocked device won't fit on and I'm reluctant to buy another device so I've been working on the honor system. The obvious risk is that I can't hold myself back, I end up relieving myself and then take my attention off my wife.

Recently it's been working pretty well. On only one occasion I was so on edge for 4 days with constant stimulation that I was feeling quite a bit of pain/discomfort in my testes. I'd be walking around at work and able to feel the pain. This was distracting and as I have a job with a lot of responsibility and people reporting to me I didn't want to start being distracted too much during my work day. I relieved myself but promised myself beforehand that I wouldn't slack off when I got home.

Later that evening I did notice I wasn't jumping to help as quickly but did make a conscious effort to be helpful.
So far I'm happy with the honor system. Maybe one day my wife will want to introduce a device and if so I'm sure I'll be more than happy with that too.

Does honor work well for anyone else?